| Hi super boredd now... Currently emo-ing while blogging after blogging Emo-ing again..... A long post is here.. I don't know why I kept on thinking bout you.. I knew that I gave you up.. And even tried going with other girls..... And tried to be serious to them... (Not trying to cheat their feelings..) But don't know why I can't forget you.. Don't think I got any hope for you being with me... And I think I won't be going to give any big surprise anymore.. Thought throughly, even if I rob or kill, I also won't be able to get you.. You have your own life and I can't interrupt your life forever? And I also didn't even want to interrupt your life.. I won't even want to do any thing that will harm you...... Many people say I'm a playboy but the fact is I'm not a playboy.... I only respect what the other party wants.. If they want to break up, I can't say no.. Even if I say no I don't think we will end up happy if I want her and she don't want me? I'm just beat being in this kind of life... The day I found you, I thought your my last girl.... And it ended up to nope.. Cause of me being stupid... Didn't know you will be so sensitive........ Seeing now is just like me being trap in a hole and you outside looking at me... I hate it when I get to see you but nothing to say and to smile.. I now have been smiling to everyone when they say hi... Don't know why whenever people say hi to me, I will always be thinking bout you.. I don't want to be in the hole anymore... I want to get out and grab on your hands and tell you what I wanna say to you.. I get so afraid of you since the day you and I were together... Now whenever I see you, I feel like running away yet can't run.. Only walk at my normal speed..... Not even walk briskly... I really don't know what to do.... See you talking or playing with boys made me wanna kill them.. And when talking to you, you talk to or bout other boys I just felt jealous... I don't know why I will feel like not seeing or talking to you.. Then after surely something funny or happy will happen then it made me want to face you and talk to you again.... I really don't want to be in this kind of life but I just can't stop myself from thinking bout you..! Need someone to tell me what to do!!
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